Breathless

Breathing with my mouth now.. sigh. nose block. To make it more terrible, both nostrils are blocked. So I cannot speak long sentences, if not I will find myself gasping for air. And my fan is getting noisier (stress). To the point that I woke up in the night and off it. Imagine me! Switching off a fan! You know how I can't stand heat. But actually not too bad, cuz at night quite cooling and I normally sleep with the lowest fan speed. Well, the technician said, need to wait til early feb for them to change a new fan. In the meanwhile they will provide a standing fan. Better than nothing. I hope their early feb is 1st of feb since today is 31st jan, so means tomorrow! Haha. I guess I will stay outside as much as possible to avoid the irritating fan. rawr!

Win-win

Today marks the end of week 1 and start of week 2. So far so good. My first arts module - South East Asia: A Changing Region is not as bad as I thought it would be. The lecturers and tutors are quite fun, never encounter such spontaneous lecturers before. While browsing through the schedules for the lectures and tutorials for the semester, the lecturer said something like this:"On the 12 April I have a party going on in my house so I will probably get drunk and will not be able to make it for lecture the next day, so Gerard (the co-lecturer) can take over that lecture." Hahah. And Gerard likes beer. I am getting some very interesting lecturers. This may not be the easiest module for a science student to read, not to mention my english is way far from the benchmark. The readings really take up a lot of my time so I am trying to read as much as possible before I get busy. Most of the time I need to re-read the passage to get a better insight what is the whole idea of the passage is about. But, as long it is an interesting module and I get to learn lots and lots of stuff then I am satisfied.

I was thinking about stuff, about my umaiya lunch that I had during new year. And I knew I made the correct decision when I decided to postpone the buffet lunch to accompany my relatives. During that point of time, I knew the right decision that I needed to make- which is to forgo the lunch. But being an absolute stubborn person, I really wanted to go for the lunch cuz I have been looking forward for so long. And there might not be another opportunity anytime soon. Sometimes, I know the correct decision to make or do, just that my heart is unwilling. But I talked myself through and forgo the lunch. I guess it was worth it, seeing my relatives happy with all their shopping, though it was really exhausting makes me happy too. What are the chances that we can bring them out? Umaiya will ALWAYS be there and there will be a second chance, just the matter of time. And true enough, though on the waiting list, but in the end we get to go during new year day! This is the win-win situation that I did not expect. And we get to go as a family. If we went during the first time, dad would not make it. So yea, that makes things even better. I guess that was the best thing that happened during the one month when I was back home.

Will be heading back this thursday for cny, not knowing when is the next time I will get to go back after this time. Might not be going back during recess week. And this will be the first time if it really happens. Plus I might have to do special term after this semester so I need to be here for one and a half month more. But I will still get to go back after that, just that I need to wait longer. Many uncertainties but I trust that God will provide me with a win-win situation.

Singapura-pura

It has been a year plus, but goodbyes are always the hardest. Yup, I am back in Singapore. Term is going to start next monday. Have been feeling sickish for the past one week, ever since I came back from camp. Flu is gone, but is suffering from sore throat now. However, it is getting better, though am not in the best condition to start a new semester. Feeling a little scared right now and the feeling of having another semester have not sunk in yet. I just need some time to get used to it and psycho myself to study harder everyday.

I guess I will have to sleep without pillow, blanket and bedsheet tonight since my clustermate is not back yet (I think. She is currently uncontactable) and I stored my stuff in her room. Let's hope she will be back asap! Hopefully tomorrow? Please give me good night sleep. Thanks.